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May. 26th, 2013 | 11:31 pm
music: Sigur Ros_Hoppipola

Livejournal, I am turning 25 tomorrow.

Ten years ago, I thought I knew it all.
I thought I was a blessed, special thing who, at 15, knew everything there was to know and had it all figured out.
I didn't.

Five years ago, I managed the fudge shop and had no plans and no goals and knew little more than heartache.
I yearned for so much, never wanting what was right in front of me.
A restless child, still.

Today, I'm a graduate. My dreams are big and my goals are big, and I have the tools to obtain them.
And I have a real true partner whom I love and respect and who reciprocates.
I have learned modesty, and patience, and stillness.
I have finally learned self-control and self-respect.
I no longer feel the need to destroy myself or those around me.
Peace has found me and I aim to keep it.

Tomorrow is a mark on my journey towards true adulthood.
Tomorrow I celebrate everything I have done and the person I have become and the things I will achieve in the years to come.
I will be thankful and grateful and also optimistic and bright.

Tomorrow is my birthday and I am in love with a man and I am in love with myself and I am finally happy.

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Oct. 13th, 2009 | 08:02 pm

Kicking myself.

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Apr. 20th, 2008 | 09:14 pm
music: Massive Attack_Futureproof

What about labret? Thoughts?

Also, the journal is in the process of being friends only.
It came to my attention that people that I don't want reading my journal
Read my journal.
It should have been friends only from the beginning...
Life is getting more real and this journal is getting more personal
And I can't handle strangers reading some of my deepest contemplations.
So, if you're lurking and you want to stay on, or you're not sure I've got you added,
Let me know.

Kittens are my source of so much happiness.
Stopped by Heather and Tom's place last night.
Kittens are great.
Came by after work today and hung out with kittens
Cracker Barrel is fabulous
And Tom and Heather never cease to make me smile.

Gonna be above 50 all week long,
I want adventures.
And bowling, damnit!
Hooray for warm weather and summer fun.
I'm bringing it back, ya'll.

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Apr. 18th, 2008 | 11:29 pm

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the worst pies in London

Apr. 1st, 2008 | 11:58 pm

My ink is itchy and my house is nervous all the time lately.
Work makes my head ache and my stomach twirl, from time to time.
No one is being communicative and so it's always nerve-wracking to try to get things done.
I think about babies a lot, too.
But that's probably PMS and hormones and my monthly maternal nature.
I've got a reputation at work now,
I'm a bitch who's the most fun when she's in a good mood.
Which is okay, I guess.
My workfunk will lift when I get more situated.
Work today was weird.
Waiting on returned calls and readmittance.


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Mar. 17th, 2008 | 01:17 am
music: Frou Frou_It's Good to Be In Love

Sometimes the best things are the easy things
And complications are just that.
I had a really weird shift at work,
Then a really great day with Jay.
I'm going to keep taking it day by day -
Buying shirts that make me feel confident
Ignoring cold sores and botched fudges
And fooling around when my parents are
Totally downstairs.

Tomorrow (technically today) is St. Patrick's Day.
And my day off.
So Will and Jay and I are going to sit around and drink whiskey
And clean the house and watch movies and play with Sculpey
And do whatever happens upon our inebriated noggins.

I'm slowing learning to wink and blow smoke rings
And to relax.

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Mar. 16th, 2008 | 12:19 am

"This isn't tv.
This is real life.
And I love you."

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Mar. 14th, 2008 | 06:36 pm


Every day that goes by just makes me
Want to go back to Hobart
More and more.

I feel like puking.

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Mar. 12th, 2008 | 11:21 am
music: Tegan and Sara_Downtown

Last night Nico and Shaunnnnna and I went to dinner
At this delightful place called Twist.
They had a celiac menu and I had gluten-free turkey with prosciutto, sundried tomatoes,
And a white wine butter sauce with SHALLOTS.
It was really tasty.
After dinner Shay got pulled over in a parking lot for being really drunk-looking
("whaddaya doooin'!?" says the coppa)
And we played pool with Andy and his two friends
(one had real big teeth)
And shay and I beat the other people once
Then we left halfway through the second game.
So Nicole could pick up our liquor from her boyfriend.
So we did that.
Drank fruity cape codders (vodka and cranberry raspberry joos)
Shay fell ill and went to bed
And me and Nico talked about art, literature, girls and guys
And then we went to sleep.

It was a very good day.

Today I start at the Fudgery and that's cool.
I have to go buy stuff for the uniform.
And find my nose stud.
And shower.

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Mar. 10th, 2008 | 01:46 am
music: Tegan and Sara_Like O Like H.

The funny thing about being home, and not in school for the first time
Since you* were real short and eating paste
Is this:
There is nothing but the change in the seasons to mark the change in the seasons.
No exams or finals or last days of school or proms or semi-formals
Or goodbyeI'llmissyouhaveagoodsummerandcallmesometimes parties.
Just nature taking her course,
Sort of slow-time shrugging off her icy winter clothes for the ultimate
Floral dress and straw sandals.
So, for some reason, this is making *me feel real small again.
Like I've been saying, the change of the seasons is in my bones,
But it doesn't signify freedom from the educational system
Or a new job or new curfews and time with friends and
Staying up late and kissing people I shouldn't kiss.
No. It just means it's gonna be warm and I can play outside.
But with my joke of a job and my near-total freedom of car usership,
I feel like finally I can take the springsummer warmth and hold it in my hands
And own it, use it to my advantage.
And I will probably grow up again.

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